Blockages. Barriers. Hindrances. Things that no longer serve me, that are holding me back. Pain and hurts from my past, even as far back as my childhood, that I’m still holding onto, that have colored my decisions and my actions, that are still impacting my thoughts and emotions. Things that I may have needed in the past, that served a purpose for a specific time, but that I no longer need.
I have changed, I have grown. I have learned new things. I am becoming a new person, yet I am still holding on to fragments and threads of past beliefs, thoughts, and fears that are outdated, that need to be updated, or maybe even need to be replaced.
This letting go is not easy, it feels like a part of me is being thrown away, a part of me is being discounted. Like what happened in the past, in that situation, wasn’t important or doesn’t matter. But that is not true. Those things have made me who I am today. They have been a part of my journey. I can recognize them for what they were, ways to help me cope with hard situations, attachments that I needed to survive, beliefs that were handed to me through other people that I absorbed into my life, stories I told myself because the truth was too hard to accept in that moment, or judgments I made as a way of protecting myself.
These things no longer serve me, I don’t need them. And yet I find myself clinging to them, failing to address them and let them go. They continue to hold me back, keeping me stuck, stagnant, fearful, anxious, spinning my wheels and going in circles.
Watching others pass me by as I sit on the bench, refusing to let go, holding tight, clinging to my past. They are moving forward, they have let go of their wounds and baggage. They are walking and some are even running forward to their future. I feel alone and small sitting on the bench.
I don't want to be sitting on the bench any longer. I want to be walking, even running on this path called life. I want to learn and grow, I want to become Me, authentic, real, genuine. I need to let go. The push and pull, the tension. I must let go. I want to let go. I will let go. Finding the courage to let go one by one.
One belief.
One story.
One attachment.
One fear.
One judgment.
What freedom! The release, the growing sense of self, stepping into my power, my uniqueness, my own purpose, my unique calling.
Letting go so that I can receive all that is for me. Letting go so that I can be all that I was meant to be. My unique self, with my unique purpose, and my unique calling.
I love who I am. I love who I am becoming. I set myself up to be successful every day, by letting go of that which no longer serves me.
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