Stillness

Going deep within myself to find the stillness, the silence, the calm, and the serenity. Going deeper still to find peace. To be at peace with myself. To know fully and completely that I am loved, I am worthy, I am enough. And in that stillness, to allow the calm and the peace to enter my body, my mind, my spirit. 

To be at peace with myself is the only way I can be at peace with others. Soak it in. Let it absorb under my skin, into my heart, into every organ of my body. And in that moment, I can see a world that is hurting, a world that is not at peace, but in chaos. And I see myself as an instrument of peace, just from being. When I am at peace, my world is peaceful. I can open my heart to those who are not at peace and pray a simple prayer for them, “May you find peace, may you find love.” 

I can try to manipulate others and pretend that I am being peaceful, but I cannot manipulate my inner self. The self that longs for love and peace within will cry out, and when I ignore that cry, it often externalizes on other people. I become the very opposite of what I really want, because I suppress it. I’m afraid to go within, to see myself as I truly am, because I have believed the lies that I am not good enough, I am not worthy, I am not loved. And I’m afraid that is what I will find if I go within myself. 

But the truth is that I am loved, I am worthy, I am enough. And when I gather courage to go within, I am taken aback. I don’t want to believe it. How could I have been so wrong all this time? Why did no one ever tell me the truth? Is this real? Can I truly believe it, that I am loved, I am worthy, I am enough? 

And so I keep coming back, I keep going a little deeper. And there it is, within me. It is like uncovering a gold mine that I had no idea was there. It is life-altering when I accept that I am loved, I am worthy, I am enough. Suddenly, I see life from a different perspective. I am confident, I am sure, I am patient,  I am understanding. I want others to experience what I have found, what I am experiencing. I want them to know inner peace, this peace that permeates my thoughts, my feelings, my actions. This peace that seeks to understand, that is curious, and wants to hear the story of others. This peace that wants to lead others to find it also. This peace that leads to conversations instead of conflict. 

When I am at peace with myself, I don’t need to coerce or bully others. I don’t need to manipulate or gaslight them. When I am at peace within myself, it radiates from me. It shines like a beacon. Others will naturally gravitate toward me because they recognize the peace within, and they are drawn to it. They want peace within their own life, and they see that it is possible and they become curious. They want to know if it is real, if it is truly possible. 

And when I go within myself to find my inner peace on a daily basis, they observe that it is possible. And I now have an opportunity, not only to live peace, but also to teach or show someone else how they can also find inner peace. 

May I be happy. May I be healthy. May I be safe. May I be at peace. 

May you be happy. May you be healthy. May you be safe. May you be at peace. 

My heart’s desire is for you to find inner peace and share it with your world. 

May you be at peace.